2014: The Comeback Year
8:50 PMI can't believe 2014 is quickly coming to an end. It feels as if the year just started. Oh man, this has been the craziest, hardest, most rewarding, and wonderful year! Somehow I came out of it on top a better human, and that makes me pretty happy. The last couple years (2011-2013) have been the years that I have struggled the most. At times it felt that I was getting hit with one trial after another. I let my faith slip. I let hatred, fear, hurt, and pain enter my heart, and I held grudges. I pushed everyone away and I slipped into a very dark place that changed the happy and bubbly girl I used to be. I lost myself and my purpose. When 2013 was coming to an end I was broken and didn't know when this destructive force was going to end. Through a series of very hard and fortunate choices during 2014, I was able to get myself back. I call 2014 my comeback year for many reasons. I regained the parts of me that I had lost, but I also found out what it really meant to be Brittney. I can say now that I have never been so happy and I cannot wait for all the fun adventures that are waiting for me in 2K15.
In October of 2013 I decided to move back home with my family. It was the single best decision I made that year. By the time January came around I had built up the courage to want to try better this year. However, I didn't do this on my own. I give credit to three things that really helped me start 2014 off with a bang.
One, I started praying and reading my scriptures again. I started following the @BOFM365 user on Instagram. With the help of this account, I have been able to re-read the Book of Mormon. I started to repair my broken testimony and I started praying again. I reconnected with my Heavenly Father and I started to love myself again. I resolved the issues I had, and I could feel better about myself again.
Along with my strengthening testimony, my family did wonders for my new year. They loved me when it was really really hard to. My siblings and my mom never gave up on me and for that I am so grateful.They saved me, and I love them more than anything in this entire world.
BYU has always been a place of comfort and refuge for me. I know a lot of people have problems with the school and the students, but I don't. This school, my friends, and the things I have been taught have bolstered my confidence. BYU has empowered and helped me to know that I am an amazing person and that I can change the world. In January I started taking this required class for my major. POLI 328: Statistical Analysis and Methodology, was the class. I had no idea what I was getting my self into. If I had known how hard it was I probably would have chickened out, but I'm glad I didn't. I have always loved school but because of the last couple years I had lost sight of that. This class reminded me why I love learning and why I love school. It has honestly been the hardest class I have ever taken, but it has also been the most rewarding class ever. I also met some of the most amazing people at BYU ever (Holli, Megan, Seth, Rachel, and Olivia). They really are great people. I love you guys!
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